got LAID!!!!!!!!!

Without an iota of doubt i am damn sure that your stretch of imagination would have crossed all barriers and you would have surmised(even though prematurely)that the "LAID" in this context would have been something sinister.....aahh....pity on you or on me .....donno....yes my friends i got laid....off....(did i say laid off?????)

this reminds me of the epic mahabharata when the great yudhishtira upon coaxing by srikrishna said (((, "Yes, Ashwathama is dead"; but added in whisper, "I do not know whether he is a man or an elephant.")))to dampen the spirits of kaurvas and specifically dronacharya...the fact of matter being that Ashwathama who was killed was an elephant in the pandavas side.....so his announcement was enough to set the cat among the pigeons in the kaurava camp..... getting laid is something very similar in context to what yudhisthir said with the notable differences being
1st)i am the speaker( a blue collar professional who is knocking at the doorsteps of history and who wants his article to be rememebered as an adjective defying masterpiece or rather be engraved on his epitaph)
2nd)got laid here alludes to the fact of being shown the pink slip in the times of financial panic or lemme rechristen it as the great depression II and not what you fickle minded people had thought...(my apologies for the condescending reference)
3rd)this is supposed to set the cat among pigeons on the targeted audience called "my company "so that they found some semblance of anguish,pain and suffering which any employee like me would suffer upon being laid off.......and amidst all this alleged hullabulaoo(ya i am hoping it to have such pronounced repurcussion) get me my job back.......

legend has it tough times never last but tough people do......my grief cloaked in humour is a testimony of my strength(read tuoghness)beyond measures......i hope there are some serious takers who understand the plight of poor blokes like me who have to go through such a traumatic phase in life wherein inspite of giving your total commitment you are rewarded with misfortune and rejection.......in this time of monumental grief i would just like to share my empathies with all the people sharing my fate....may god give all of us the courage ,fortitude and tenacity to tide over this crisis....
amen!!!!!!!!

The Seige within!!!!

The seige within aptly describes my state of mind at this point of time....yes since the day i felt myself mature enough to handle the famed ways of the world i had one complain against myself...i succumb to the lure of temptations very easily......i dont have the the virtue of self control over my senses........everything has a purpose, its on us to find it....there is nothin like starting self control or stopping my desires to inveigle me to do something,,,,, its about doing ,doing and nothing else..but as they say sometimes you have to loose your mind to come into senses ...i thought to exorcise the demons inside me......what i am doing right now is something very akin to loosing my minds...

i am trying to question the three basic rules of life paradox ,humour and change....i think the biggest paradox in the life is the life itself....needless to say its a mystery in itself...but i have realised that no purpose is served in unravelling the mystery ..rather be content with the present state of thing...did i hear someone say "ignorance is a bliss"..truly it is in this case...earlier i had this wistful longing to see my future in a crystal gaze which at this moment looks very frivolous to me...i wanted to see which way my relationship with people heading to???what are the implications of forging new relationships on me and my near and dear ones....but now i dont mull over these things at all..i have resigned myself to my fate.....something which is destined will happen come what may.......
the second rule of life according to me is humour ....i am a firm believer in the notion that humour is something which gives you a kind of strength beyond measures......it has helped me to tide over all kinds of crisis which i had been beset with at different crossroads of my life.....a person without humour is like a wagon without springs ,it is jolted by every pebble on its way.....
so essentially the kind of humour i like is something which makes me laugh for 5 sec but forces me to think for 10 min......three cheers for humour......

thirdly another of the most important cardinal tenet of life is change.....knowing that nothing will remain the same forever is the one thing which makes me awake all the time .... i dont want myself to be the product of environment..i want environment to be a product of my actions....my actions of change........the first step i guess should not be to give up what i love ,but to find love in whatever i do.....lets see whether i am able to change my life from the despair of winter to a spring of hope........

comments awaited!!!!!!!!!!