human emotions demystified...

human emotions a difficult subject to write for a fledgling writer like me and belonging to the breed of writers who does not believe in "throwing in the towel" i want to take a chance and its up to you to decide how succesful i am.
to begin with we can divide our life majorly into two halves fear and love..jus like we have the negative and positive part of the number line we have fear occupying the negative end of the spectrum and love occupying the positive end of the spectrum....any human emotions can be classified as either belonging to these extremities or lying somewhere in between...
for ex take the case of a kid who has his maths class test lurking in the horizon and he has not yet prepared as he went on procrastinating his study schedule which resulted into him resorting to cheating on the exam day ....what do you call that?????
"fear...yeah..."
to further my point, its a strange phenomenon which happens with everyone called cognitive dissonance in psychological parlance wherein the mind learns cognitively what is correct and what should be done(in this case the feeling in the child not to cheat) but then still it does something exactly antithetical to what it has learnt....to corroborate further take the case of a soldier who before going for a war knows that its wrong to kill people but that doesnt deters him from killing his adversaries....you can still label that as fear ..fear of surviving from the enemy's bullet which can blowup his body into smitheerens at the drop of the hat......

now talking about the other extreme called"love" i would like to expatiate on "love "as a feeling first .......and i am getting goosebumps at this thought only which has just flashed through my mental plate...lets take one perspective first ....Is it the fear of getting "rejected"?is it the fear of being "alone"?or has it to do with "fear"of failing .....all three q's blatantly point to fear as the driving force for "love"....little disturbing ..i guess...
let me veer around and come out of my semi torpor and take another perspective ....love as a feeling which came first which engendered fear.... and not the other way out...........sounds incongrous but justwatch people and world around and you will realise that this is not just my figment of imagination.......ask a survivor of a terrorist attack and jus observe the subtle yet pronounced changes(in a way or the other)which has happened in his life post that phase...see his care ...see his love for things as nondescript as his personal possesion or his renewed love for persons who are valuable to him....a fallback of fear you may say....but if you look the other way around its the gnawing fear of loosing the loved ones.....serendipious,isnt it???????
still unsatisfied ...let me go further ...you love someone at the first place and then dread(read fear)the occurence of any act from your part which will make him love you less......huh..........a big conundrum..........
ohkk ..lets totally digress and see how does this sound??i assume that our life cycle is not a strictly monotonic curve take ax^2+bx+c ...as a general curve which mimiques our lifes trajectory(not neccesarily true).....now suppose the discriminant is greater than zero and it has two real roots (ya i am talking about a real situation )....and the parabola cuts the life axis....the two positive roots(distinct....so you can very clearly notice that assuming yourself to be sliding along the curve from the leftupward portion you will strangely realise that you when you are at the top there is a persistent "fear"of falling down....once you are sailing along the plateau there are gamut of human emotions which sometimes are a chimera of sorts and instill desire to consolidate in your mind..yes i have to maintain this position of mine and you start tweaking with it a little bit and voila here you are on an upward trajectory wherein you inadvertantly "give" love and "want love".....sounds intriguing...yes it is....
so,again the crux of the discussion is who is the controller of all this????is it on its own......???no my friends it is the eternal battle between the "id"and the "superego" which is in turn controlled by our "ego"..........its the outcome of this battle which decides who wins and what emotions govern a human mind...........suggestions welcome.............