the zealous observer!!!!!

hmmm.........Some of you smart fellas must have noticed the irony which i have tried to highlight.....some of you must be scratching your head to understand the irony....let me make things easy for you.The irony which i hav tried to highlight is how can an observer be zealous????Aren't they supposed to be silent,observing you like an artist devoted to painting.???...just to purge your mind from this misconception i am penning down this article.....From quite some time i was thinking, to give myself the epithet of "the OBSERVER" precisely because of the fact that i have realised off late that i like observing people,the way they present themselves ,the way they communicate,their body language et al.....some of you might be surprised that in this fast paced world where people dont find time for themselves how can someone afford to observe others and get influenced by them.....but then everyone cant be the same...
I am not one of those breeds who believe that sitting in the cosy ambiences of your room and by just merely reading you become an experienced fellow...i am one of those effusive and demonstrative kinda guy who likes to communicate with people,who believes that being introvert is the trait of a coward and who likes to make the people around him relish his company....but then again the q "is it easier said then done???" Am i trully like that???Do i project myself in front of others in the way which i want them to feel about me????I have seen a paradigm shift in myself as a person in these last 2 months.....I used to be one of those person who was like "the grumpy and the grouchy kinds"who used to complain to god for anything which was denied to him...There is a sudden realisation of the"power of positive thinking"which has dawned on me.....i have started looking at life in a different way..i have met some real good people who unknowingly have suggested the lacuna in my personality par se...and to reform myself as a person has now become one of the guiding principles of my life....now the moot question is how do you relate my "observation" with meeting people???....i would just say that unlike other people who are busy caring about themselves(to the extent of narcissism)i take trouble in doing some introspection..talking about introspection,which has caught my fascination from quite some time i have just figured out that every person has some uniqueness in his personality which should be appreciated......it can be something very mundane but the point is sometimes the mundane also goes unnoticed.....

take the example of my roommate, whom i asked once "yaar tujhe gussa kyun nahi aata"???
he said "yaar jab tak mai dekh leta hun ki wo bearable hai, aur, jaroori nahi hai to mai gussa nahi hota...aur waisey bhi kisi sey jhagad key kya faayda ..kaun sa tumhey 1000 saal jeena hai jo sabkey against dushmani rakho....chota sa life span hai...kuch accha to nahi kar paaye buura kyun karein"..
it was an eye opener for me as i have this habbit of getting piqued at people occasionally which manifests into a cold war(at times).....and then subsequently results in severing of ties...i have lost many a good friends of mine because of my this habbit.....nonetheless i took stock of the situation and mended my ways....now you must be wondering that where was this insight for the past 20 yrs ...did i become an observer all of a sudden.?????...
no it was the maturity which was missing...it wasnt the ability to observe the rules of game called "life" (which everyone knows but still like an ostrich who digs his head in the sand upon seeing a prying enemy pretending as if it hadnt seen the enemy) but it was the failure on my part to just simply observe and let the positive thing to go away...i have discoverd the art of introspection which when coupled with observation makes a lethal combo(pun intended) ...now i am not at all passing a sweeping statement that i have become mature overnight..what i am saying is that with each passing day i am striving to become a good,mature individual....and to faciliate this cause i am having a tryst with my observation skills which has promised me that with each passing day it will help me in becoming a better person..........
amen!!!!!!!!!!!